B.C.A.'s Origin Story

Episode eleven of season 2 for Beyond the Podcast of 1984. This episode: Who the heck is The Bizarre Alien?! It's the origin of B.C.A., the early years!

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Whew. What was that? I think the foreign monster just, just ran by, and, threw up at me. That's cool. Been a lot of sightings of the fort monster lately, and, So. Yeah. Here we are. I am the bizarre alien from outer face. Beyond the Podcast of 1984. this is, I'd like to say a special episode of guess. No, it's not the WTF zombies one yet. It's not the mentor's episode. Nope. I was thinking earlier, man, I want to do a new episode, but what the heck am I going to talk about? I'm like, hey, I know, this, I've got to talk a little bit about, some other things that have shaped me. The person that I am and, one of the many reasons why I nicknamed myself the bizarre alien. So when I was a kid, I was really, really, into Star Wars. I saw when it first came out, and I was, like, six years old, and I thought it was awesome. Although I didn't realize for quite a while that Darth Vader wasn't Dark Vader, I thought that was his name. In fact, when I was really little, I think it was about 7 or 8. I had a dream that Darth Vader and a bunch of stormtroopers walked through the MOS Eisley cantina, and I'm guessing they were looking for, you know, Han Solo, Luke Skywalker and Obi Wan and C-3po and R2d2. I don't know. But yeah, they were, in a dream. I had a dream about Star Wars when I was a kid. I lived in Airway Heights. I was obsessed with Star Wars. In fact, I had a best friend at the time and William Jones that lived across the street from me, and we every chance we got, we would play Star Wars. We'd play action figures and we'd pretend to be the characters. Like I was always Han Solo, and he was Luke Skywalker, and we'd try to find other people. And I mean, I was obsessed, man. I had a bunch of action figures. William had a bunch of action figures, both had a lot of action figures. You know, he was drinking vodka. I was drinking vodka. But anyways, this guy, sorry, I had American, I've got, I've had American, movies stuck in my head lately. So anyways, we both did. We had a lot. We had a lot of Star Wars figures, and we never mixed them up. We knew who's who's who's, and we play with them every day. And it was fun. But anyway, Star Wars was really big in my life, and I still love it. And I'm embarrassed to admit that for many, many, many years, I was not into Star Wars. I mean, I wow, I didn't, you know, buy any action figures. I didn't watch the movies. I hadn't seen Star Wars in a very long time. And then when it I think, yeah, when it got rereleased in, what was it, 97 and I, I felt like such a traitor, man. I saw the first one at the theater with some friends, and it was a beautiful experience. It was so cool because I hadn't seen it since I was a little guy. So it was like 20 years later. And this was, of course, two years before. Yeah, 97 US, two years before The Phantom Menace. And anyhow, it was a it was a beautiful experience. Man. This gets me a little emotional because I mean Star Wars man. Holy smoke. Anyways, I ended up got a coffee, I checked it out at the library and I got the first Star Wars movie, and it was the pre special edition, you know, with all the added stuff is fine. The version's kind of cool I guess, but honestly, I prefer the original theatrical, just like Empire and Return. I like the, original. You know, before they added all this stuff, I those are cool. Don't get me wrong, I think they're kind of cool. Although the extended dance scene in Jarvis Palace, Return of the Jedi, I always thought was kind of cheesy. I mean, it's kind of it's kind of funny, but whatever it was, George Lucas's vision and story. So hey, man, you know, do what you gotta do. It's cool. But, anyhow, yeah, I ended up later down the road, sort of like some action figures. And I think I have about, I don't know, 25 figures I have. I'm in a construction helmet for some reason. I've got some books. I got this really kick ass pop up book, but. Okay, I'm kind of going on and on about my Star Wars collection. This episode was not just about Star Wars. I mean, I love Star Wars. I'm the guy every time I love doing this. If I if I'm in a building or anywhere with automatic sliding doors, you know, you walk through or wave my hand and I've had people look at me weird, but occasionally get somebody looking at me like, yeah, right. They know what I'm doing. Anyways, I love Star Wars. Big time. It was my first love, my first foray, exposure or whatever. My, my entry to the world of science fiction. And of course, it expanded. And if you listen to an earlier episode in season one, of course, I talked about all the other shows I loved, like, you know, and I still love Battlestar Galactica. Buck Rogers. I love the Flash Gordon movie. Not a big fan of that since I saw that. I think in 81. I saw it right after it came out. I saw it on on, God, I don't think it was VHS ahead. I mean, it was probably Betamax, but anyways, Flash Gordon, I love those the serials, the Flash Gordon serials. Guy my brain is just gone. Ding ding ding ding ding ding. You know, the original Star Trek. I appreciate all the Star Trek series. But the original Star Trek is what a great series. Seriously, man, you know, I love it. I been really slow. I get box boxset way, way, way over here. Right? Year and a half ago, I finally broke down to get the DVD collection. I need to get back into it. I feel like a idiot, but I keep forgetting I have it anyhow. Science fiction. When I was a kid, this is right before Dune came out, which I'm going to tell you right now. I'm a huge fan. I've read the first eight books. I love them. Frank Herbert, I think, was a freaking genius. And I think his son did a really great job with, I believe it's Kevin J. Anderson. I think it was helped him finish the Dune books. At least the main. You know that. Well, the main stories, not all the side stories, but anyhow, first time I saw doing it didn't make any sense to me. I was like, why? But, you know, later on, because I was just stuck on Star Wars. So anything else? Although I did, I still love The Black Hole. That's one of my all time favorite. So science fiction films are still freaks me out the near. That ending is just weird, man. You know what I've seen? I'm talking about. If you haven't seen The Black Hole, check it out. It's proof that Disney wasn't always kiddy kid stuff. I mean, the black hole was pretty frickin dark, man. But, so my whole thing is, you know, my early years. Cause getting really into science fiction and just being kind of, just being in my own world, you know, 82, I guess. So. Conan the Barbarian and Excalibur. Hawk the Slayer. I think it was 82. Maybe 83. So I'll show you an assassin and all these movies, you know, all these these, like, you know, warrior films and stuff really inspired me. And when I was a kid, I was, I was drawing a lot, so I was obsessed. I came up with this, the science fiction concept. I called it Star Eagle, and that was the name of the ship. And it's really cheesy looking ship. I haven't drawn a long time, but to me it looks like a cross between, RV, small RV, and, and like a mobile home, it looks really dumb, but it was really inspired by another show that I really love too. That was a big inspiration. Me in space 1999, which got God great show. Still needed that Blu ray collection. I love that show, but the ship was really inspired by the, the Space Eagles, which I thought space was ships called Space Eagle. But those ships were so freakin cool. And, great show that. Really weird sometimes. And really creepy. Just just amazing. So, you know, I got in a drawing when I was a really little kid. I came up with Star Eagle, and I was like, this guy. And his best friend was this big, furry, like a monster guy and obviously rip off the Star Wars and are flying around in a ship called the Star Eagle. And then the enemy was this guy. And I still can't figure, like, hey, like a weird breathing apparatus on his face is called he's called Martian Man. And I think he was like the villain. And the two robots, of course, you know, whatever they were inspired by. But, I didn't draw any comics or anything. I just drew a lot of pictures of them. And I still, I don't know, I don't really remember what the characters looked like, but I remember the ship looks like. But kind of being in my world. My own world, I was always a so-called nerd. It seems like at a young age, you know, I was just like a target for assholes. And this. I guess that's how it is. You know, I wasn't, tough or cool, but I was really into that stuff. And at the age of 53, I still love all that frickin stuff, man. I love it so much. But I really got into drawing. And as I was growing, you know, my uncle, who I have in art, I don't know, I hope he's okay. Not the nicest guy in the world, but, you know, my flesh and blood. But anyways, he did a few cool things that I will always be appreciative. And wherever you are, I thank you so much, man. But when I was a kid, I think I was about nine. Yeah. I would hang out with him because he would. He'd come over, he like had time off or whatever. I think it was an a camera visit the Coast Guard. So he was taking a break or something. He was on leave. I was living on my grandparents at the time, and he used to let me read his, his more adult, magazines like a Warren publication stuff. So Van Perella, the rook, Erie creepy stuff like that. And I loved it. I was like, wow, definitely not really kid stuff, but, you know, not bad. Like pornography, but just more graphic, violent, scary cool stuff. Cause vampire. Oh, guys who love vampire. Oh, a man, then a big, then a fan since I was a kid. I love vampire a lot, but any who. And then of course, heavy metal magazine. In fact, I remember he gave me an issue. I don't know what happened to it, but one of the coolest things that he ever did and I will always be grateful for. I'm a huge fan of this, about to see who this is, but he got me this really cool glossy. I was like, it was like a book, but like like a soft cover version of a Chris Foss, art book. And I remember being just so fascinated, I guy, I was just, it was a just an awesome, beautiful boyfriend. All these paintings and a lot of them ended up like being the cover of science fiction novels. Like a lot of the Lensman series, which I've never read of. Like, do I remember the anime? I wish, I wish, I wish even it was just on DVD. I wish they were released. That is, I just have it on VHS. Really cool anime that's based on. I don't know if it's based on one book or maybe, you know, random stuff from different books. I have no clue, but it was really badass. Anyways, Chris Foss was a science fiction illustrator slash painter, and his stuff was so frickin cool. Like, a lot of, like, derelict spaceships. Like, are ships in battle or like, ships floating in space with major damage on them. And then like, a lot of stuff, like, planets. And there'd be, like, some warrior looking person and stand next to a giant robot or something, but just really fricking detailed. And I gotta say, to this day, it's been about it's been a little over three years, but my sister in her, in her, I miss you, man. But her dear, her partner in life was a wonderful human being named Kenny. And I miss you. Dude, I love you. Rest in peace. I was I was at, my family's, my family. The, for Christmas. And it was really funny because I'm sitting there and they handed me this present. It was really heavy, you know? Like, what the heck? And I opened it. I mean, I'm out. Burst out crying. It was a Chris Foss huge book. I was like, oh my God. And I poured through. And I was like, I mean, I was cry, I, I've no shame in it. Just it gets me choked up thinking about it now. But I was like, how would you know? Nick? I always seen your posts and they also give me the Batman, TV series collection, which I had, I had, but I gave it I to a friend of mine. One of the discs, one work is they all worked on my player. It didn't work on mine. It was all glitchy. So anyways, they got me there. And the funny thing is, I almost bought that like two weeks before and I was like, oh my God. It was like psychic powers. But anyways, that Chris Foss book is a beautiful hardcover. It's got I think it's pretty much it's got most of the stuff I remember. I mean, my memory is pretty vivid, but from that, softcover, that softcover book is really small compared to this. This book is huge, man. It's like a just big, beautiful Bible. And, And it's I so cool. But the funny thing is, the book that I had as a kid, I think I cut it up. I was cutting pictures out and it ended up in the garbage. I was just like, fudge man. And around that time, you know, I was living in my grandparents for a while, and my mom does a little side thing. She got me a Shogun warrior. And, you find those nowadays, and it's so damn expensive. But it was, Oh, God was a dragon. Cool guy with the redhead with the fives. Oh, yeah. I'm sorry. I'm doing it again. Another really cool show going Shogun, where I think it's, like, almost a cool signature to warrior. But I got that my mom came over, wanted to visit. It wasn't over for very long, but. No, I don't remember. She visited or she sent it to me in the mail, I can't remember. It's been a long time. I was like 9 or 10, but I, you know, she got me a show. Go, Warriors, give me the dragon. And, he was so cool. And it just sucks because somebody ended up stealing it. Of course, frickin thieves still in a kid's magic. But all this stuff, man, was such an inspiration to me. But especially, like, art, you know? And, watching some movies and, you know, when I was a kid, I really. I wanted to be a superhero. I remember Wayne and I when he was, you know, still here. This is a long time ago. We were like, oh, man, imagine being like a superhero. Like maybe we could join the Justice League. And, you know, it's. And it's funny because when I was a kid, I kind of believed that because I didn't think like, oh, yeah, one day you're going to grow up, you're going to get married and have a big house, have kids and dogs and cats and the car and all. You know, it's funny. I still haven't achieved any of that. I mean, I live in a house, but I don't own it. I don't have a wife, I don't have a girlfriend. I don't have a mistress. I don't have children. I don't have any of that stuff. I have a dream lady. And believe me, I love her so much. I fantasize in my mind if she was actually here. Like the time that I fallen head over heels with her. Oh, yeah. Probably be grandparents now. I don't know, have a space car or something. But anyways, moving along, that's, that's that's my personal stuff, I guess. But anyway, you know what I mean? Fantasize, but I just I loved all that stuff, and I was really a big Superman fan. Like, after I saw the first Superman movie, I think I saw, like 79 or something, but I was obsessed with Superman. And anytime I'd see comic books or anything else, I love Superman and I still do. I love Superman, I'm a I don't have a lot of Superman stuff in my life. I mean, I've had the the four films, you know, a Christopher Reeve and say what you want, folks, I enjoy. I like The Quest for peace. Is it the greatest Superman movie? Nope. Heck no it's not. But I like it. I thought it was fun as I said that. That was the last one. Christopher Reeve I mean, yeah, they could've done better. But you know what? It's it's kind of like, what can you do? You know? But anyways, Superman is awesome. And I wanted to be like, Superman and and just be a hero, you know, and but playing and you get older and you just all the crap you gotta deal with. And it's like, I get older, I'm like, you know, I'd almost rather be a frickin supervillain. People suck, but I don't want to be a super villain. It's like, oh, used to be the opposite of superhero. Like, no, thanks. I was just being yourself. So just kind of like, maybe, like, be a rogue or something, and it's kind of, you know, your own world, man, but you know, all the stuff. Okay? I am I getting too close to that? But all this stuff on life, you know, how we all we well, we when we grow up and things are exposed to and it kind of almost defines us as people. And, I mean, I never was like a super geek guy that, you know, I go older and all sudden, man, oh, I matured and I become really handsome and attractive and attracted women. I never really attracted anybody. You know, I'm still I mean, if you want to call me a nerd or whatever, go for it. I get excited about films. I still I collect Funko figures. Yeah, I know somebody out there laugh and, you know, whatever. Kiss my butt. It stinks. So just kiss it. Anyhow, I've got a bunch of random acts or figures of stuff like, you know, I got like imports of, like, ghost in the show. Figures that I get at the Comic workshop years ago. Never opened them, got a lot of action figures. I got a wall of, like, action figures, like a lot of chaos figures and some anime figures and stuff like that. And like, I got a lot of anime in my life, you know, of course my movies got different genres. Of course my favorites like horror and sci fi and and horror sci fi, but it's just always love that stuff. It always all that stuff has always appealed to me. Of course, comic books, all that stuff, it just it makes me happy and it takes me away and, you know, like, real life isn't really that exciting. And it's just seems like a lot of the things that happened earlier were always bad stuff. Like, you know, when I was a kid, I didn't know about bills or any of that crap. When I get older and I'll said, boom, boom, boom, I just got a medical bill, a few days ago for $939. They didn't want me to come back and then do it again. Like who? Yeah. And I'm dealing with all this stress crap being an adult, and some people don't have to deal with it because they don't have any responsibilities. It must be nice for them. And it sucks because just about everything I do, I gotta I gotta deal with myself. I don't, I mean, I get help, I've had a resource center and my doctor is helping me with school and I'm gonna have to talk to him soon, cause I got to figure out what am I to do? So I got more bills coming up and it boom. Oh, pardon me again. Duh. Yeah. Hey, anybody falling asleep hearing me yawning? Hopefully not put it on because you could listen to it later bruh. But you know, you get older and it's like, it sucks, man. I mean, sometimes being a kid stunk. Dude was horrible. I mean, I, I wasn't abused or anything, but I just felt like really ignored and just kind of, in my own world, spending a lot of time alone, listening to music, drawing headphones on constantly with music in my head, a lot of music and I'd say, what probably the one I listen to the most is Pink Floyd, but I listen to a lot of a lot of music. I still listen to a lot of music. I'll try to get back in that lately, when I get home from my job and I'm trying to listen to more music. It's kind of hard, you know? It's. I don't know what's going on. It's like. So there's really, like, I have OCD, I can't concentrate, I'm trying. I'm having a heck of a time, but I've been really stressed. I can't drink regular coffee anymore. I quit that like three weeks ago, a game. I don't drink alcohol at all. That's been like four months, you know? Here we go. Here you go for a drink a little bit like, no, I cannot drink at all the medication that I'm on. Oh yeah. Right. I did that once. First night I took my medication, I drink some beer and the next day I felt frickin horrible. I'm not doing it again. Anyhow, getting back to my my life. Well, this is that is part of my life. But, that's the thing I, you know, people don't understand it. So. I mean, you really like movies, you like all this stuff, and it's like, you know, so people think, oh, you got to grow up. Like, I remember my stepdad saying one time, and I love I'm not dissing on him, but reading I one day was, you know, son, just going to give up your Star Wars fantasies and, you know, you know, get with the real world. It's like, I don't know, man. The real world is horrible. You know, like, people are like, oh, yeah, you go on, meet people, hang out. Like, I like hanging out with friends sometimes. But you know what? I'm really good with just hanging out by myself. I have a core of friends that that are awesome, that I talk to on and off. I haven't really hung out in a while. One of that's my fault. Sorry, guys, but, I've got friends online that I am very fond of too, that I talk to. I send voice messages because I hate typing. But anyways, real life. What a joke. I mean, yeah, I have, I have enough real life, responsibilities of hey, bills and I gotta take these as medication and just go to my job every day. So I'm like, you know what, man? What? I'm not doing that crap. I'm like, in my own world, I play games, I just beat, what is it, sniper league for? For this, like a time. Oh, was it a beat five. And then I beat four. And, because I replayed them both, and I'm, I'm the playing part three again. So I love that series. But, on the PlayStation four. But no, the whole thing is our life. People you get with reality, I'm like, I am in reality, or you need to screw up. And I'm like, I'm as tall as I'll ever get, but whole. I just get tired of hearing it. It's like, you know what? I do enough stuff. And when I'm not like when my boring, real responsibilities, I'm trying to enjoy my life because, you know, I don't know how much longer I'm going to be around. I'm not saying, oh, will do it more, but you never know. I mean, my health hasn't been that great, but dealing with crap about my colonoscopy, I thought I was going to be getting man, like next Monday. Well, actually, you would be. Yeah. Like within. Like what? What is this is now Thursday three and three days. And I can't because of all of this crap anyway. It's just like, give me a break, man. You want to get on my back because I like comic books and all that. It's like, screw you and your boring reality. It's like, I why? I like metal and punk rock and new wave and noise and crazy music. It's why. What do you think? My band, the airwaves, my whole image, cortical image is sci fi and aliens or robots and machines and space. I was so realistic. Boring. That's why I think a lot of rock music. I think a lot of country music. I think all this stuff is boring. As I was singing about rule over my blog, I'd rather sing about what makes me happy. Real life does not make me very happy. I mean, I, I appreciate certain things and in quote unquote real world reality, blah. But, you know, that's why I call myself the bizarre alien to I just don't I don't want some normal name or I mean, I don't have anything against my name. Charles Styles, and I appreciate I'm getting kind words to pass. Oh, man, you sound like an actress. Sounds like an actor's name. I'm like, well, thanks. That's cool. I like my name, don't get me wrong. But that also goes back to the punk rock thing, you know, coming up with your own name, the non-Christian thing. Because, you know, in Christianity it's like, oh, as part of the whole Christian thing is you have to name your children and be blessed. And I'm not. I'm blessed. I'm one blessed. I'm a frickin mutant man. I'm damaged. And I've got like, black blood flowing through my veins. And I will always be grateful for getting into science fiction. I'm glad that I'm the kind of person I will say that I don't care. Sounds egotistical. I'm glad. I'm very happy that that all that stuff appealed to me because some people doesn't. I mean, you know, I'm not putting down people like kids that are really into sports and, you know, stuff like that, or being a Boy Scout as fine, I think is and I want it to be Han Solo or Superman or, you know, like I wanted to be, like Ambush Bug. Whoo! Who needs. I need to do an episode about why these days, but I ambush bug rules. It was cool, but I wanted to be mad Max. In fact, when I was a kid, Wayne and I would dress up like, like, characters from the Road Warrior, mad Max two. He would be the gyro captain, wearing goggles and an overcoat, and he'd wear like, what is it? Not an Ascot, but like, what was, I think of Rob Halford. You still wear around his waist, like, oh, okay. More or less stupid things called. It's like a not a hanger show, you know what I mean? Like some frickin, sash. Like a sash you'd wear on his neck. Kind of like how the gyro captain did. And, and Road Warrior, and I would dress up like mad Max. I'd pull one sleeve up on my jacket, and I wrap like a bandana around my leg or something, and just. We're obsessed. I'm still obsessed with that movie, man. I love mad Max two, aka The Road Warrior. It's my favorite, favorite movie of all time. Fighters been popping in my head. I don't know, I might have to watch it again. It's something. Something's going on in my head, man, it's been a while. I haven't watched, that movie in a long time because I've seen it so many times. I want to say I'm not bored of it. I just I've seen it so many times, and I'm hoping within the next couple weeks or so that I'll see Furiosa. I really hope that I have not missed it. I want to see the movie so bad I could taste it. I could taste the oil and the silver spray paint and the and the sand and the the destruction and all that. I guess I could taste it. I can smell it. But no, that's one thing I was thinking about. One day. I was really depressed. I was like, I'm grateful. I mean, we all want to call it destiny. You know, your path that you follow. And I mean, maybe this this stuff is what made me kind of, I don't know, I'm not a loser, but you know what I mean? I just I never had girlfriends or any of that crap, but I was always awkward around girls and. And it's funny, you know, I've grown up and I'm still kind of in my own. Well, actually, I'm very, very into my own world. I'm not, like, anti-social. There's a lot of girls that are like, dear friends. I haven't heard from them in a while. They're all really kickass ladies. I mean, I love them all. They're great. They're cool. I hope that you're listening to my show. You're all lovely and wonderful. Like my friend Janet, she's cool. I remember one day she just got hold of me. She's like, what are you up to? Like, I'm going to go to 4000 holes and like, hey, I'll meet you there. I'm like, wow, you know, you want to hang out. I'm like, yeah. And I went there and I bought a Rob Halford two CD, his solo, like, you know, his album that was on Nothing Records and she actually showed up and I was like, oh, wow. She showed up and she took like, this. Hilarious. I don't know if you call it a GIF or what, but it was just like a no. A short video of me with my hand in front of the, CD and and I'm slowly lifting my hand up and we were laughing, and then we end up going across the street and we hung out, drank some beer and, you know, and then we ended up going or mutual friend Rollins, which was really cool seeing her, but she had to go to work or something. She had to go somewhere. So I end up, I walked home, it was a long ass walk. But anyways, it was really cool seeing her and she's like, dear friends is awesome. But yeah, I've just I've always been in my own world. Know, I just, I don't really bother, man. It's, I don't feel compatible and maybe even kind of scared because, you know, you're so used to being by yourself and you thinking, oh, man, if you're like, with somebody and I'm not even talking about sex or any of that crap the same, you know, if you be with somebody that you know, likes you and cares about you and I don't know, I think I could deal with that, man. I mean, I'm 53 now and I'm used to being by myself. And I know so many people who live alone, multiple girlfriends and all this, you know, sex and experiences. I haven't, but, you know, honestly, I'm just thinking, what am I missing out on? I mean, sometimes I feel a little bit lonely and heartbroken inside and wishing I had somebody, you know, I've had people that I've liked very much and nothing came out of that. And, you know, made me sad. And I'm like, oh, well, you know, what can you do, man? I'm an alien. I'm a mutant freak, jerk, black, blood flowing weirdo. But it's good. It's all good. But I just I love everything that I'm into and it's helped make me who I am. And I do collect, it seems, is predominantly hockey gear stuff like, you know, road warrior type stuff. Like, I've got a black hockey mask. It was white, but I spray painted a black and I will say real fast here, don't ever spray paint one in your bathroom with no air running, with no windows or anything else bad. Yeah, that sucked, but I love that hockey mask. Thanks, Shawn, I love it, and I'm getting some Velcro. I took it off of a light, some kind of a headlamp thing, and, Oh, I love that hockey batting. I've got a I've got like, 3 or 4 pairs of shoulder pads. I got d pads, a all kinds of cool stuff. Got a catcher's, mask, an old school one. Not this new crap. It's pretty heavy, too. And then I got all kinds of, like, a motocross. Like it's like a plastic helmet thing with a visors. I love that stuff, man. But y'all know if people grew up, I. I'm done, I don't care, I'll never grow up. I am grown up. I'm as grown up as I could be. And I love that stuff. And, you know, people that give up everything because of a good relationship. And, and I'm not even going to say she should be a woman with the guy. It could be a gay couple. I'm sure that's happened with a gay and lesbian couples, too. Or like, just, oh, get rid of all that. Well, you know what? You're weak. If you're doing it, you get rid of some because you want to know. Because somebody own it like that. I don't care who you are. I dig everything I have in my life. And if somebody was offended, I'd be like, well, why are you even with me if you're offended by this? But anyways, my whole point of this episode is I am proud to be Charles bizarre Island of Styles, and I will continue to be until like die and I have I have fantasies I wish I could be in cult films. I have fantasized about being in a Troma film. I wish I could, I could, go back in time and work being a film with Astron six. You know, I wish I could be in, I go back and I that's always there. Older stuff. No, it's like their older stuff. But some of these people that don't you don't really do underground stuff anymore, like Harmony Korine, which I still love. I love all of his films, but I have always wanted, you know, image of being in a Harmony. Korine film, like maybe playing some weird, sleazy character, or maybe even somebody that just blows their head off. Like, I like the beginning of Ken Park, so I wouldn't want to be in a movie that short. But like maybe played, you know, a character, some weirdo just playing myself. I feel like my life sometimes feels like a Harmony Korine film, you know? I feel like I am in one of his films before that, so there's some stuff I won't even mention, but just some of the stuff that I've done and experienced. And, it feels like something from Gummo. Sometimes I'm in my room, I'm freaking out. I'm playing something like, I don't know, I'm sitting in my room head banging the cannibal Corpse or some Japanese noise or something, or sockeye or something, man. You know, and I'm just having a great time, and I'm like, if I was like, caught on camera, it'd be pretty funny. But, you know, just people need to be themselves. I mean, if you want to be really mainstream, that's fine. But you have to be such an ass face, because that's my problem. And a lot of yuppies, I'm always ragged on yuppies, but a lot of yuppies are just stuck up snobs and think their crap doesn't sting, look down on people and are like them. But I've seen that in the punk scene. I've seen that in the metal scene. Really close minded people, not all of them. You know, I've met some very cool punk rockers, cool metalheads, but some country people are cool. Although not too many. But I'm talking about real country people, people from living the country that are like good people. But anyhow, I'm rambling now. I'm gonna end this episode in a moment. It's getting there. Yeah. The. So this episode is pretty much, you know, all the stuff that, model being on the course, getting in the noise and, punk rock and heavy metal and, you know, I want to say heavy metal. I mean, like many different genres within heavy metal, love most of it. What else? I don't know, industrial techno, new wave, 80s pop was only a little bit of newer stuff. I like, like I actually kind of like, Dua Lipa. I think she's beautiful, but like, couple of her songs like Billie Eilish don't listen to her a lot, but I don't like her. I think she's a very funny, cute, lovely, hot, funny, just interesting human being. And of course, let's go back to the 80s with Samantha Fox and Bananarama and, B-52's and all those other cool, lovely ladies. But yeah man, appreciate if you're still with me. Thanks for listening to my show. Science fiction was definitely my first big thing. Horror. Definitely love horror movies. I wrote more and more nowadays for the, for the, killers than the victims. I used to root for the victims, and I'm like, I like the killers better because the victims are usually butts, but also. And if you still haven't seen it. Speaking of that, check out, In a Violent Nature. I love that movie. Can't wait till it comes out on DVD Blu ray. I want to get it really bad. I did finally get my cheerleader camp, which to disc was a better condition, but it played just fine. I got it like weeks ago and it was a joy watching it again. It made me really smile. I gotta get that disc cleaned. And it's like, got it for $37 because it's out of print. Anyways, all the stuff I'm into, especially mad Max two, is, like, really shaped my life. I appreciate all that stuff. I appreciate imagination, there's just so much cool stuff out there. And of course, you can never forget anime. Anime has always kicked me in the butt. So much great stuff out there. Of course, my very favorite fist of the North Star and it yet, sir, this is another big giant favorite and loop on the third. All the series and the movies and all that and all kinds of crazy Asian films and American films and films from all over the world. Thank you for inspiring me and helping me through the bleak times and making me who I am. And, opening my, my imagination. You know, all the great stuff, all the bad stuff. I appreciate it, man. And, thanks to all my favorite directors and writers and artists. You all mean a lot to me. And a lot of you are gone now, but never forgotten. So thanks. And also to my dear friends and family for always believing in me. Thank you. I hope you enjoyed this episode and as always, you can leave a comment. Just listen to this episode. You're going to be the, pig and BTV 1980 4.com and that'd be really cool because if I get any comments and suggestions and stuff, I will answer on the following episode. And, who knows, maybe we'll get the episodes out sooner. I don't know, it just takes a while. Tim. Busy takes a while to edit these. I always thank you from one of my heart. Love me, brother. And, it's always to my space lady. If you hear the show. I'm still waiting, man. I've been waiting for a long time, so please come on down and hang out with me. And, let's make up for lost time and have lots of fun and just laugh in each other's faces. That would be really awesome. And kind of bro. Turn me on, too. But, you know, let's me, my weirdo. So anyways, thanks for listening to be on the podcast in 1984. This has been the bizarre alien from outer space saying keep watching the skies. Take care, keep the filth, because the faith may let you down, but the filth will always be with you, unwashed and and un unloved and whatever else. Soap I'm making any sense. It's late. So much love from me to all of you out there. Take care and, look for another episode soon, all right?