Who The F*&k is Gynger?

In this episode BCA gets very personal and opens up about his horned alien dream woman named Gynger. This is his life and his story to tell. There's nothing more personal than opening up and revealing intimate details about your dreams. Who knows? She probably does exist.

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Okay, kids. Here we are again. Your parasitic host, the booze czar, Illy and Editorialists. The two Beyond the podcast. The 1984 or. Yep. Another episode. But episode four. So what is. What is today's theme? I don't know. This mirror got the arts channel on law school, classical music, orchestra, music, opera, all kinds of stuff like that. I enjoy it. It makes me happy. Actually blows me out. It's good stuff. So anyhow, I was having some technical difficulties. I've now tried to do two episodes of them past did not come out. I should have tested it. Anyways, I know this is coming out so that's cool. Yeah. So I better go ahead. Add this episode to that is Ginger. That's right, folks. An episode about my dream lady Ginger Alien just decided I might as well do this. Got a little bit of time to kill. So, anyways, you know, I call myself Bizarre Charlie Alien. And when I first called myself that name was bizarre. Charlie back in 88 and was about 91. So what happened is I've always been a loner. I've always been in my own world. I've always liked girls. I had crushes on lots of them. I'd read love notes, you know, like, you're real, you're real pretty. I'd like to go out with you in and course a chicken out next day, you know, just stupid stuff like that. I took him out and the next day throw him in the garbage. But, you know, every night before school, I are so neat. I really like to. I like to know her. And I go, What a geek I'd be. I was a total third man. I, I found one of my diaries from 88. I was I don't want to say I was a stalker, but I was definitely obsessed. Like I keep talking about like, certain girls, like, how pretty they are and where I'd like to go with them. And I bet by the end of this week I'm going to have a girlfriend. I will a loser. I never I never happened. What a joke. So anyways, as I was always just too scared, I was a dork. And, you know, I like girls. I had a girl that I really, really like. When I was in high school, I found out I me I really liked. I start to get a big crush on her and I would like Will just stare at her. And she was beautiful and probably still is. I don't know. Anyway, so I found out the next day it was Give me your birthday. And my grandma had a bunch of these cards and I asked if I could have one. It was a birthday card and I actually wrote a little note on it. I said, Happy birthday. And I walked up through the next day right before a class started, and I said, this is for you. I heard it was your birthday. And what was really funny about it is she was really nice to me. After that. I honestly thought she was going to yell at me or like, freak out. So anyways, she was really nice. I'd say I'd see her always. She'd say hi to me because, I don't know, I guess I impressed her. And ah, what's funny is a couple of weeks later, they're having this really just stupid high school crap. I don't even do this anymore. But you could buy someone a carnation and write a little note. So I got a carnation and I wrote, Hey, I really like you. I'd like to get to know you. For if I. If I get the chance. Well, what gets me is that these girls said they'd give it to her, and these girls were total bitches. And to this day, I still think that they wrote something in that card and because what happened is it was like a Friday, I think. And I went up to her and I said, hey, did you get my carnation? And she just went off on me. She said, Don't you ever bother me again or something. I don't remember. This was back of like 89, 90 probably at all late 89. And she just freaked out on me, you know, like, I'm really sorry. What did I do? And, you know, kind of made me really sad. So anyways, I get on a bus, and then about a week later, I saw her in a hallway and she just standing there and all these people were walking around her. She stared right at me. And, you know, I, I always think if I could go back in time to walk through characters, you know, I'm sorry if I offended you. All I did was just write a note. And I didn't think about it until later, as I honestly think that those bitches I really think that that's what they did. I think they wrote something really great in there, but I never found out. I probably will never know. And I did look her up. I couldn't find her. Her name was Diane. I can't remember the last name. It doesn't matter now, but I really like. There are a lot of those. She was just beautiful. And, you know, first of all, I noticed that she was saying I was up to I guess it was date football player and he was kind of an asshole to her. And it's like, why would you treat a girl like that? I mean, she's just as pretty as I just that she's nice. Anyhow, I'm I've always liked girls. I just never really went after them or to stop myself. I don't know. It's like some people think I'm gay. I'm not gay. I don't have a problem with gay, bi trans people. I'm not myself. I just was always too afraid or never really tried, you know? And just. Well, anyways, I was a little bit, you know, distraught about that whole thing with her and I whatever, you know, I mean, I got over it, but I was also I was a little bit sad. But anyways, one day I was get into this manga because my best friend at the time, my buddy Wayne and I were challenging each other to find like Japanese comics. So like when we were first getting in anime and stuff. So anyways, I got this manga. What was it like? I think it was one of the collections of Outlander's and if we were seeing it's this beautiful alien princess comes to earth with this fleet and she starts killing people because they got to take it with her by large story order and a guy like she goes after him. This is like a random supposed to be a random victim, but they end up later on in the car, fall in love, turns against her father, who's like the ruler universe or whatever, and they fall in love and blah, blah, blah. Well, anyways, I got I had a crush on this character. I was like, Spit it out. There's a lot of beautiful women singing in a big chorus. got some beautiful ladies in there. Yeah, yeah. No distractions, but I love those beautiful women. There's so many cool, lovely women out there. I just. Like I said, I just never bother. I just gave up. So one day I'm out and my grandpa and I were growing a garden. We're growing this corn garden, a big mound of corn guarded. But, you know, we're growing a bunch of core. And it was like summertime. And I was out, out there by myself and I was pulling a bunch of weeds because I would do that every day, like later an afternoon. And it I was standing and I'm like, you know, I'm kind of a lonely dork. And, you know, this girl, lonely guy. And I was looking up at the sky and I started thinking, Wait a second, you know, women on this planet don't seem to like me. Music. I'm a loser. I'm a nerd, I'm a jerk. Think of a creep, whatever. Even I never did anything, you know? But anyhow, I started a way. What am I doing? Movies from outer space. And it kind of got my heart racing. And I was like, my God, You know? I mean, it was kind of like, man, it's kind of like a revelation. And later on that night or that afternoon, I drew a picture of this girl with horns, and I just called her Ginger. You know, that was the name I pictured except wasn't, you know, GMG, g y and g r, which, you know, different spelling, obviously food, you know, purple hair, orange, green eyes, little elven ears, horns, claws, fangs. Just the most beautiful girl I ever seen in my life. I just imagine my heart was racing like crazy and it was like a full moon. So you don't want to draw pictures of Rose drumming in the background. But anyways, I totally fell head over heels in love and I'd never felt that way about 80, buddy. I mean, I've like girls, but I never had that feeling or a harsh reason like crazy. And I absolutely knew that night what love was. And I'm sure people think that's weird. And, you know, I've had people think I'm a worrier. Those who really like to see just women. And I was like, So what? Whatever. But anyways, when I started the earwigs, you know, my first recordings, I didn't I'd never put her on the cover, but I started drawing or putting her on a cover of some of my my tapes, like DSA De La and or Lune or Gingerbread Girls, which I've never been able to pronounce that name, but that was like one of my favorite old recordings. But I was drawing her. But they're on the cover of a lot of my my tapes. They're my first seven inch from like 93 is fluid. Then she started to run the cover, one of my early drawings or, you know, she's like awareness outfits sitting in front of rocks, kind of looking off, you know, looking away. And I just my God, I love her. But no, what I think about her, it just makes me really happy. We are hundreds and hundreds of drugs over, but she's, you know, to me, she's perfection. She's beautiful, she's cool, she's sweet, she's kind and people kind of know that about me. They're like, yeah, the dude that that likes that, you know, was dream ladies from outer space. And I've had dreams about her. But it's kind of sad because every time I've had a dream about her, it's like we're together and she's like, leaning towards me, you know, kissed me or some or start saying something. And then I always wake up every single time. And, you know, sometimes it's just been kind of weird and but, you know, life is weird sometimes. But anyways, a couple of years later, there is a scene called Dear Reader and River and Ogre Snog Erica from Fickle Side, God's Favorite Band, some other bands he reviewed one of my tapes and it was really funny because the very first sentence in it was something like, Here's the Earwigs New to Love Bark is Ginger and Big Words. And my friend Billy and I, we were laughing so hard. We were we saw that issue. We were laughing because I think he gave me that issue. He ended up giving that to me. But I think he did. I got to go through my boxes anyways. I thought that was great. And I was thinking about like about a week ago, I was like, you know, I should do an episode about my lady. And but, you know, the one thing I do want to say for the record is anybody that's ever thought that they were her is a joke because that has been stated before. Like all your he said it was a dream girl. It's like, you know, no you're not. You never worried. You never would or will be. And that is blasphemy. There is only one gender alien in the fricking universe. And I'm going to tell you right now, she is the girl of my dreams. And I love her more than any lady past, present. And I can't ever say future because there is no one for me. I like I said, you know, I've always been a lonely guy, so I'm in my own world. I remember watching an anime years ago. I was this guy had this dream woman and then she disappeared and he end up getting married. But near the end of the movie. And it was sad. It's like, Isn't that kind of selfish? You get this real wife, you get this woman that loves you anyways, he's he ends up dying and his dream girl shows up. It's like a ghost. And I can't remember she was supposed to be real or not. But anyway, she shows up and she kind of. She takes him away. But I was like, That's still kind of sad because it's like, you got somebody. You got this this lovely lady that you grew old with. I don't even remember what the anime was. If anybody remembers that, let me know. She's like sitting in a lawn chair or something, and then she's like, kind of twirling. She's like, dancing. That's like your spirit or something. But I don't know. I don't remember. She was supposed to be a real baby. She was, but or maybe she was his first love. But it was really sad. And I mean, I've only ever had one other person in my life that I really, really, really, absolutely loved. And I will say love. And I don't even know if that's even anything for a story or an episode, because I don't know if I say it's private. But anyways, she's gone. And maybe this sounds weird. Maybe I'm getting weird here.

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00 in the morning. No Alec Adams or but I really liked her. I mean, for like a real girl or Earth girl. I really liked her a lot. And she's gone. I'm trying to get her to fade from my mind. But the thing is, I also feel like a traitor. And, you know, maybe it just gets psychologically weird here because it's obvious that Ginger is now real. But in my mind, she is in my dreams. She's real. I mean, I've had dreams about her that feel very real. I've hanging out with her. And then there was a scowl that I really liked. And I won't lie, I'm still a little bit sad because we talked for years and I thought she was very special. And I don't mean to bring her so much into this. She knows who she is. You'll probably never hear this. It doesn't matter if you people, but know what I'm talking about. I will say before I could include about her is I hope she's doing good. I hope she's all right. I do. I'm sorry about everything or whatever, but I hope you're doing okay. I don't hate you anyways. This is not about her. So that's Dawn. But, you know, the whole thing with. With my girl is this is just. She's a fantasy, too. You know? But it's not just fantasy. You know, a lot of people, they have a fantasy role or say, whoever you are, you got a fantasy person, you know, And a lot of times it's all sex. That's not I read natural thought. Maybe I'm not going to get into it. But you know, the whole thing about love and companionship and friendship and all that stuff, it's a B, she kind of fills a void. And she has since I was right out of being a teenager. I mean, I think I was like, how old was I? It was like 1ei think I would have been 20 when I first thought of Ginger. But I actually our little story about her is my knee. One of my knees is screwed up. It's been screwed up since like 92 or 93. One of my drawings over the cover of the split. What does she charge? I had that on my wall. I still have that jaw on. That is 40. Because it is. It's. It's a color drawing and it's stain her feces. So like stain because I kissed so many times and I Yeah I yeah I've kissed that picture so many times, you know. Anyways I woke up one day and I jumped on my bed to kiss the picture. And the next day I got up, I stood up and I filled out. Everything went white, pure white, and got it hurt. I ended up. I went to work that day. I used to work at West Central Community Center. But I'm sitting there and I mean, I could barely walk. So my supervisor said once, take a tomorrow off and go to the chest clinic. They wrap my leg and it's a year later. I still had problems with it. So I went to the doctor's, got X-rays. I had to wear this knee brace. I had six months, and they said, If it doesn't heal, you might want to look at the microsurgery because apparently my ligament is all screwed up and my knee never healed. It's never fricking healed. I didn't I never got surgery either. But anyways, I still my knee still screws up sometimes, but it's all because it jumped on my bed. This is a picture of ginger alien, which is kind of silly. I've told people that Merrill lap, they're like, Whatever people. I'm sure you've done dumber things. Yes. So she's adorned a lot of the your week's covers. And I kind of quit doing that because I'm like, you know, it's kind of personal. It's like, you know, put her on the cover of my albums and, you know, people say, is she their wig? Like, No, she's space girl. It's wrong way, way, way out there. But one of the very last dreams I had about her kind of makes me sad because it was during the time actual person that I really, really was fond of. I had a dream one day that I was sitting up on a big hill and Ginger was sitting there wearing all black and she had long black hair. For some reason it was kind of weird. Her eyes were very serpent like. But anyways, we were sitting there and looking down the hill and there was like some hippie band playing music. It was like some first of all to go on. Well, then I looked down and they were all gone and I was trying to say hi to her and she wouldn't respond. She was sitting there like in a weird trance. And then when I looked back, she was gone. It's like. And after that I didn't have dreams about her for years. And I mean, it's like I said, I know, you know, it's all she is. She's a dream, She's a fantasy, she's an idea. But it really bummed me out. And I felt really lonely and just sad. But, you know, I'll say it probably over and over and over. I'll probably keep saying it throughout this whole show until it ends one day. But yeah, just being kind of in my own world, man. I've had lady friends. I had a friend that I was hanging out with for a while and she started drinking more and more and she got really religious to start preaching and I haven't seen her and I don't know what, five years? And I just say, Hey, good luck to where you ended up. I personally think she ended up she got a boyfriend because she was always pretty to me, like, I really like you, you're cute, blah, blah, blah, but I don't have sex. And she would tell me that like every time I like, I get it. That's cool. You know, whatever. I liked her as a friend. She was fun to hang out with, but, you know, and I'll just like my other dear friend that I don't talk to anymore, you know, I hope you're all doing good. I hope that you find happiness, because a lot of these people have not been happy and my buddy Adam brought up one day suspended. You know, I was a voyeur. Like, I should make that or something, you know, other you attract the wrong girl. But you know what? I was like, No, man, you're good position. Put yourself down. But I was thinking about it, and I kind of felt like maybe I'm a shit magnet. I'm not saying like, every girl's like me who's been nuts, but it's just it's been ridiculous, you know? It's just like, you know, why couldn't I really attract, like, some cool, nice girl that, like, really liked me and, you know, wanted to hang out with me and be with me and blah, blah, blah. But, you know, I like I said, I gave that all up. It doesn't really matter. I mean, I, I can't ever see myself. pictures of me. Hey, I was a woman. I got married. You know, I'm never going to get married. I'm never none of that's going to happen, man. I went out with a girl for like, two weeks, and I was of interest. Experience did, and. Well, but then again, you know what? I was also locked out because it was actually kind of funny. It's. I don't hate her either. I did for a while now. I you know, it's a system. It's like whatever, you know. But I've like a lot of girls. I've had a couple of gals. I know the other girls around me, and they were pretty nice, but nothing came of it because nothing happened or I just didn't bother. I just didn't want to, you know, cause I've had this idea of this girl and, you know, they get about my lady, you know, you can't, you know, you try to be somebody, you know, it's just like, you know, like people talk about trying to find a woman. I've had friends say that. Well, do you know what? If you do meet your girl, but she's not exactly what you think. And I understand. That's a good point. Is there really a girl out there with violet hair, barbwire, green eyes, horns, bell, all that stuff. Super beautiful. Super nice. Probably not. But let me tell you something, right? Let me tell you this. I don't care. Because you know what? Even if I never meet her, I technically have. She's in my season, my being in, you know, man Earth. Yeah. Is it lonely, Chyna? But I just I don't know. I look up to selfish. Don't really ever be with anybody because it's. I got to always be thinking about my girl. Like, that's not cool. It's like that anime I was talking about. But anyways, you know, you can't like people that meets a lot of, like, all you got to be just like this person that I imagine in my head. That's really selfish too. So that's part of the reason why I don't even bother because there there's nobody in this universe like her, man. You know, I really don't see it. And what's a. Well, people do meet their dream person with the air, and it does happen. But, you know, my my thing is, I had somebody told me this once. In fact, there was that particular girl that I really liked. She said, you know, your dreams come true. It's like, I'm sorry, but the real serious dreams I have are not going to come true. They're impossible. There are some dreams that are absolutely impossible. I'm not going to meet an alien woman. Did I tell you we border ship and take me away and fall in love with me and all that stuff? I mean, it's something that I have fantasized about for like 32 years. Man, Is it going to happen? I, I doubt it. But you know what? I could still dream. I've only ever given up on my dream lady once in my life. I was like, You're not real. And I got really down. I actually cried out. It was like, I'm never going to meet. You're not a real. It just made me feel incredibly lonely. And then I was just like, I can't give up. And, you know, I'm sure that people think, this guy's crazy. These weird. that's right. I am the bizarre alien, and I am not the bizarre alien for nothing. I don't call myself that for just no reason at all. I am a weirdo. I am a mutant or an alien. I'm an outsider noise, a freak, weirdo jerk background creep asshole. But I'm also a decent person, you know? And I got to see this before this episode ends. Is that if you're out there, if my lovely, beautiful dream woman is out there and you don't mind that I'm kind of thin and that I'm kind of beat up, that I'm not Mr. Cool, I never was. But I'm here. I've been waiting for you. I love you with all my heart. And I know you're out there. I'm sure you are. Maybe you're listening to my show and you be like, my God, it's him. I've been looking for him for so long. I don't. No. Am I crazy? Am I delirious? Perhaps I am. But I also have Charles, the bizarre alien from outer space man. And this episode of Beyond the podcast of 1984 has been called Who is Ginger? Well, you know, she is. And before I go, cause she is from Planet X and she is just super beautiful and awesome and I love her and we will. And no matter what happens in my life, I always think of her. I think of her every single day and she makes me happy. And perhaps I'm insane. But I also have been stuck on this planet for so long that it's hard not to be insane because when you're not part of this world, it's it's kind of difficult to, like, be in the man who fell to Earth. It's a that's a whole different story. And David Bowie's awesome and that's a great movie. So anyhow, I think this episode is about to end well. Yeah. When you see the mysterious looking girl on the cover of some of my tapes and records, even, yeah, she's been on the cover of what Is Her Secret. And I was going to say for a little trivia thing, there was that album called that I actually was inspired by Victoria's Secret catalogs because I used to I used to find a bunch of them for free, and I'd take them because the girls are so beautiful sexually. But anyways, I was thinking, okay, I don't know. That is a make this sense. But the whole thing is there's a picture of ginger on the cover kind of looking off in outer space. What is her secret? Well, what is her secret? The others, She doesn't have a secret is an alien woman. And I just. The whole concept of an alien woman excites me beyond belief. Mad really excites me. I mean, wow. I just couldn't imagine a girl without horns or fangs or any of that. I think it's sexy and awesome, and I would like to stay for the record that she is not a devil. The whole concept of of horns, that just really annoys me because all that is, is what Christians like perpetrated the stereotypes on on pagans. They all they worship and these are double he was that devils a frickin goat man. But anyways you know how it is with religion. Everything is evil. Well, I guess she's evil. I'm evil too, because this evil man would like to be with the evil woman. please. Episode made sense. Like I said, I'm kind of zoned out. It's almost 230 in the morning, and I just kind of blab in and blab it. But anyways, yeah, Ginger is my dream lady. And if you didn't know that, you do know that now. And if you're out there, my love, I'm waiting for you because I'm kind of lonely now. But if I have to keep all waiting, I guess I will. And somebody could break through and do what we do. But. All right, that's about it. My brain doesn't work. I'm out of here. So, as I say, at the end of every episode, we will stay sick, take scare. Don't forget to change your underwear and keep the fill and keep watching the skies and goats get no respect. So anyways, we'll see. You hear you next episode. Yep. This has been episode four of Beyond the podcast in 1984. Blah, blah, blah, nanu nanu. I'm out. Bye bye.